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[Jul. 6th, 2008|02:06 am] |
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I am alive. Feeling a little melancholy and dark. A lot of shifting moods. It may have to do with the lack of sleep in the last two days. Stress? Possibly. Not sure about what though, all things considered.
Maybe it is time for an ice cream break. |
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[Jun. 23rd, 2008|02:34 am] |
My first week off from work was a messload of feelings.
Overall? I came to the realization that working at that company made me less than who I am. I should've left last year.
Now, I am in a haze and while I realize that people do change, I hope to change for the better and walk around with less anger and frustration.
I guess I have been anti-social for many reasons, my main reason is to not pollute the world with the negativity that I do feel right now. |
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[Jul. 2nd, 2006|12:10 am] |
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My friends are geeks. |
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[Jun. 28th, 2006|09:24 pm] |
So...
Last Friday was girl's night out (Danny was an exception). We went into a "specialty shop" (aka XXX) and got a personalized tour! It was my first time in one of those shops and thought it was v. cool until one of the ladies who worked there looked at me and was like, "You're a lesbian aren't you?" WTF?? My reply? "::blank look::" After being prompted again, I was forced to say, "I am straight."
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I never thought that I would ever have to put those words together (I feel for you metro-sexual men out there). I am hoping that it is as my friends said and she was just interested in me and was phishing for info.
If that was the case, she sucks at picking up girls.
Though she does get points for directness.
+5 |
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| Letters |
[Jun. 15th, 2006|12:04 am] |
I'm backed up on letters!
I owe some letters to a good amount of people.
First on my list is Hector(Texas) & Wacifa(MOM) (separate letters to those who knew them).
Non important "angry" letters include Aerosoles, Gap, MTA, etc, (I wrote one to RadioShack).
On a side note, I might have a shopping problem. Its like a seasonal thing. I see these people with new clothes and I want them too. But I cannot justify them! I have more clothes than I know what to do with. My solution? Stop buying myself clothes....
So today, I took my brother shopping...
Yes. I am totally missing the point.
I guess I can always gain weight. Then my clothes wouldn't fit. I'd have to buy new clothes.
Or go around naked. |
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| On EGO Crackers |
[May. 2nd, 2006|12:27 pm] |
The Ego as you know should always be fat in order to maintain a healthy sense of self-worth.
That being said, it suffers from a disease where it cannot keep the weight it gain over a long period of time. As its only meal consists of Ego Crackers & Cakes (Ego crackers combined with Gifts), it must be fed constantly. You ask, "So, what happens if its not fed? Does it not exist at all?" HA! If only. Should the people around the Ego choose to ignore it and not feed it, BEWARE. The Ego is cannabalistic and often victimize other Ego(s) within the vicinity. If you ever find yourself hurt or crying after interacting with someone, you have been attacked by the anorexic (not by choice) EGO.
Let this be a warning to all, FEED THE EGO!
Personal Message/Sample of Ego-feeding:
Hi Umi - You be so hot with your non-bug glasses! Woohoo!
NOTE: All Ego crackers should be tailored to the EGO being fed. |
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| On Work... |
[Feb. 7th, 2006|11:55 am] |
"I like work: it fascinates me. I can sit and look at it for hours."
- Jerome K. Jerome |
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| Girl's Night Out |
[Feb. 5th, 2006|12:55 pm] |
I used up my one of five days to go out this year!
My "co-workers" and I planned on a night out when we one of our friends invited us out for a B-day thing at a Lounge. I figured why not since I don't go out much anyway. So I got a posse of girls together and planned for this thing for a week (when to meet, what to wear, how to get there, etc). It didn't turned out as we expected. The Maya Lounge (www.mayalounge.net) was a cool looking place to bring a date but not for a party/clubbing thing. So many things went wrong.
First, J's buddies did not offer to buy us drinks. This really offended Nora (cute blonde girl w/ German accent) and Jess. I kinda expected it when I saw what quality we were working with. The music sucked. Albeit, I knew the words to Backstreet Boys and sang along when the DJ(Asian) played it, it wasn't really "In the club" which Jessica requested after Celine Dion's Titanic song came on. It was bad enough as it was, but since Jessica also added the comment, "Can you please play anything but this?!" The DJ started a string of Jazz music. Wonderful.
The music was physically hurting me so I had to leave. I didn't want to go home after planning a night out so I got in touch with Bret (my Gap buddy)and he hooked us up with this place Savannah (48th btwn 5th and Madison). It was bad enough with the three of us leaving, but I also robbed J's party and took an additional 3 asian chicks with me. The guys saw us going and was like, "Nah, stay, we'll buy you drinks!" Nora appropriately responded with disgust, "Its too late!"
All in all, it was a night. I ended up having to physically push this guy away twice, Jess manuevered him in a manner where he had to spill his drink on himself... Bret later took care of it for us after I complained about him harassing us. It was interesting. |
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| Post-Javitz |
[Jan. 20th, 2006|05:33 pm] |
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I made it! Twelve straight days of work, 4 of which I spent working with Microsoft at the Javits Center. I must've spoken to over four hundred people on Monday and Tuesday (Saturday/Sunday was set-ups and meetings). I am so exhausted. My first real weekend will be tomorrow! Going out with the girls and definitely celebrating with a drink tonight. |
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| (no subject) |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|11:51 pm] |
You know what's messed up? I can't react to situations normally. Especially when it comes to friends/family. For example, I get mad, I want to stew a bit (lets say a week), just to prove a point (anger, disappointment, etc). But then I catch myself asking, "How would you feel if they were to die tomm and you're so busy being "angry" that you missed a chance to savor their last moment with them?"
Yea yea, some people might think thats a bit paranoid. But seriously, having ppl you know die like dominos one after another, it's not so far-fetch that it could be a reality. Unfortunately, I can't afford the luxury of "stewing" anymore, which is a big part of my 'stubborn' personality. AHHH!!
So now, all I have going for me is my honesty, which is so 'honest' that its painful. |
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| Sick |
[Dec. 12th, 2005|12:08 am] |
I'm sick. I usually don't get sick until January-February, but it must be the added stress of this job. I have mix feelings about work, sometimes I like it, sometimes I hate it. I don't look forward to the mornings b/c I have to wear dress clothes and I can't "be myself" in jeans.
Grrr.. I'm also having an identity crisis. (though, that might have to do with my recent haircut which has led me on this long journey on "Who am I? Who do I want to be? Who the hell am I trying to project with this f*cken MULLET???!!!" Thanks Lisa.) At work, I try to project this image that implies professionalism, seriousness and some degree of naivete. That last one is mainly for my self-protection in case I might mangle some sort of implied responsibility that taking on this job entailed (trust me, its easier to forgive someone who you already assume doesn't have that much experience). -BUT- My problem now is that I work on average 9-10 hours a day, give or take lunch. That means, that my work persona is taking up too much of my life's time.
I want to be the old me. Exotic, witty, unique, honest, etc. In short, attractive. Especially after turning 23. Its not even the age, its the fact that its another bday. The problem with bdays is that you don't feel a year older if nothing has changed. I want to be pretty again!!! Or, at least, my brand of pretty. Some of it is looking atrractive, but a big part of it is confidence. I lacked the confidence that I use to have and I don't know why. Sadness.
On a side note, I would like to go see "Memoirs of a Geisha" and "Chronicles of Narnia" (Both of my siblings saw one or the other, though my bro said that Narnia didn't live up to his expectations. I read the book when I was younger, so I am interested in it regardless. |
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| 3 Questions |
[Nov. 12th, 2005|02:42 am] |
I don't know who reads my journal. I assume not many, which is probably why I don't feel this obligation to tune in every week or so. But right now, I do have three questions to ask those of you who do manage to sit through my updates.
1. Who are you?
Basically describe yourself in a couple of words (not physical descriptions like "blonde, blue eyed, etc" but more like "intelligent, opinionated, etc".
2. Who do you want to be?
As in, if you can change certain things about yourself in order to become a person that you can respect. (Again, not "blonde, blue eyed, etc").
3. How do you think others view you?
This one would be hard to answer because not a lot of people can be objective about themselves.
What is this for? Not much, this is just an exercise to see how many of us out there really know ourselves. |
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| Strange... Happy Post-Halloween |
[Nov. 3rd, 2005|10:31 pm] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) psychobutcute's Halloween party:
_ellipsis dressed as Emeril Lagasse.
jestermotley dressed as a Hewitt-GattainCooperative employee.
pullorpeel2 dressed as the love child of Tom Cruise and Janet Reno.
readahead dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Zsa-Zsa Wafflesquirt".
twofivenone dressed as a furious devil.
Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
Created with phpNonsense |
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| Epilepsy |
[Oct. 30th, 2005|11:51 am] |
"However persistent, more violent eye twitches could be a symptom of other physical or psychological ailments, such as undue stress or temper tantrums, neurological damage, or even epilepsy."
http://ask.yahoo.com/20040102.html |
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| Soph logic... |
[Oct. 28th, 2005|02:23 am] |
Scene: After a whole day of hanging out with friends and walking in the streets of New York....
ME: Hey Umi, we just spent 8 hours hanging out together!
Umi: ..uh huh..
ME: That's how long I spend sleeping!
(epiphany moment)
Me: Umi! We practically slept together!
I know, just when you thought it couldn't get any weirder... This was something that happened awhile back, but I just recalled it today. Fun times. |
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| Social |
[Sep. 9th, 2005|10:31 pm] |
I wonder if I am a social person.
I mean, I enjoy talking to people. I honestly have no problem turning to the stranger next to me and striking up a conversation. But when it comes down to a, "Hey, lets get-together and hang out!" type thing, I find myself very reluctant. Its extremely rare if you get to see me more than once a year/season. I think it comes down to the fact that I am stingy with my time.
It goes like this, people don't want to hang out with you unless they like you. They only like you, if you give them something to like about themselves (i.e, flattery, jokes, making oneself look bad to make the other person feel superior, etc, you know the deal).
Now, most of the time, if you are not the one insisting on hanging out or that it is a mutual thing, what you will end up having is a spending a night out with someone, (who you didn't really want to go out with) and waste the night trying to make them feel good about themselves. And seriously, if you're not in a situation where you are forced to see them anyway (work, school, home,) why make yourself suffer??
Do keep in mind that it takes a lot of effort to entertain. You have to come up with topics for the conversation, giggle inanely at irregular intervals, bat the eyes a little (yes, this for the ladies too), smooches in the air, the works people!).
SO YES, I don't think I am social after all. What I do have is social skills. A pity that most people that are out there socializing can't differentiate between the two. |
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| Power |
[Sep. 2nd, 2005|02:30 pm] |
The key to having power in a relationship is all about the person's ability to maintain some sort of detachment. After careful observation, I have noticed that most relationship revolves around one person catering to another person's wants and needs. The person being catered to usually have a roaming eye equivalent to that of a child with A-D-D.
I am not speaking from experience of having that problem, if anything I am probably the one who will most likely be accused of having A-D-D. Not only do I want to give a shout-out to my A-D-D peeps, but pass along a useful warning:
Eventually, they will realize that they can do better.
This observation is not limited to those in a romantic relationship but applies to all relationships, friends, family, etc. It comes down to the question of whether or not you want to waste time on a particular person of just decide that they are worthless as you watch them die on a corner somewhere of dehydration. (Pretty, I know.)
Oh and on a less serious side, I would like to say that one of my biggest pet peev is people who can't keep their word. |
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| Re: Guns |
[Aug. 31st, 2005|11:02 am] |
Note: That gun comment was in reference to a friend who I believe was interested in me. I turned around and started talking about my accuracy with the revolver, how I felt when handling semi-auto(s), glocks (which is a sexy weapon), etc. The guy hesitated for a minute and then was like, "Uh, let me go to the bar and get you a drink."
Funniness.
But in the end, being certified to shoot does nothing for you if you don't bother getting a liscense. And getting a liscense is a b*tch. |
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| Guns |
[Aug. 30th, 2005|08:08 pm] |
Talking about guns is a big turnoff.
HAHAHAHAHA
Suckers! |
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